When he came to, the man was sprawled face-down over a bed of rough rocks. A sound drifted away, familiar though its name raced just out of his grasp.
Where the hell am I, he thought.
He pushed against the cold rocks but collapsed when an intense pain gripped his chest, leaving him gasping. Once more he pushed, gritting his teeth against the pain. Unsteadily, he stood and surveyed his surroundings.
Better question: who the hell am I?
He stood naked in the center of a field of stones, each the size of a croquet ball. They had a regular shape, with jagged, sharp edges and a uniform gray color. No, not uniform, he saw. Some were brilliant white, a few others were dull black. Despite the lack of an obvious light source, he could see the stones perfectly. But beyond them was an impenetrable blackness surrounding the field and filling the sky, as though he and this field were all that were left in the universe.
He gingerly took a step forward, cursing his lack of shoes. The rocks shifted with each step. He stumbled across them like a drunken sailor, heedless of the pain they caused his unshod feet. The rocks shifted again and he tumbled, his arms outstretched to break his fall. And fall he did, but not to the stones. His nose smashed into a smooth, glass-like barrier as he tumbled into it.
He knocked on the barrier, then pounded. It rang like a hammer tapping on glass. The sound echoed around him, louder and louder until he could no longer take it and covered his ears. He squinted angrily, then reached down. The rock he grabbed was as black as the darkness beyond the barrier and heavier than he had expected.
No matter, he thought. The heavier the better.
Like a pitcher starting a wind-up, he brought the rock up in front of him and grasped it with both hands.
A wave of vertigo overtook him. His vision blurred, and he felt himself falling, rushing through the blur and into … somewhere else.
#
He spat blood, but never averted his eyes. His right eye was swollen. Blood dripped from a gash on his forehead. His body hurt in a hundred places. From the look of her, crumpled on top of the broken chair, blood trickling from her bruised, swollen face, she had fared no better. Good, he thought.
“Edward,” she pleaded. “Please!” She tried to push herself up but he shoved her back with his foot, leaving a dark smudge on her torn, blood-red frock.
“I didn’t tell you to get up,” he growled. Edward? a part of him thought. That’s my name?
“I’m sorry!” she cried. “I … I can explain!” The flickering candlelight glinted in her wide, fear-filled eyes.
“Sure you can.” He drew a long pistol from beneath his tattered cape and thumbed back the hammer. Though unsteady, his aim was true.
Her eyes grew even wider. “Edward, please, you don’t understand!” She was in tears. “Don’t you remember?”
“Oh, I understand,” he said. “You took it. Now I want it back.”
“But it’s killing you!” The panic was rising in her voice. She pushed, crawling back a few inches. The broken chair cracked beneath her.
He smirked. “You thought you could just take it from me.”
She shook her head. “Edward, I love you!” She shifted again, one arm behind her, as if trying to push herself upright.
“Sure,” he said. He sneered, then pulled the trigger.
#
The gunshots echoed in his mind as he dropped the rock and staggered back. What the hell just happened? The vision had come alive, playing in his mind like a vivid, recent memory. Is that what it was? A memory? He bowed his head. Is that who I am? A woman-beating murderer?
I am Edward, he thought, but who is she?
The ground shifted. The rocks around him jiggled and shuffled and rearranged themselves. He lost his balance and fell onto his back. “Ow!” A rock sliced into a bare buttock.
He rolled over and pushed himself up to his knees. He waited for the pain in his chest to subside before slowly rising to his feet. He reached back, probing the wound. He felt a jagged tear in his skin that was painful to the touch but did not feel the sticky wetness he expected. He examined his hand: dry and clean, no blood at all. He looked around himself. No blood on the rocks. No blood anywhere.
“What the hell is going on?”
He took a step. The rocks shifted under him and he slid a few inches. In front of him, a section of rocks collapsed; what had once been a level field now contained a shallow, cone-shaped pit. He teetered as the pit widened but retained his footing. He scrambled away from it, stopping only when he backed into the cold, smooth barrier.
He whirled around and slapped the barrier with both hands. He pressed his face up to it, straining to see beyond his faint reflection. There were dim, flickering lights in the distance that barely penetrated the darkness. They dimmed briefly, disappeared, and reappeared as though something had moved before them.
“Hey!” he shouted. “I’m in here! Let me out of here!” His voice echoed uselessly around him. He slapped the barrier again, then sank to the rocks and buried his head in his hands.
After a moment, he lifted his head and looked around. Near his right foot was a brighter rock, brilliant white. He imagined it calling out to him with its whiteness. He reached forward and grabbed it with both hands.
A wave of vertigo overtook him. Blurred vision and a rising, deafening buzz consumed him. He fell forward, tumbling end over end, through the blur, and into another vision. Another memory.
#
“Bring that candle closer,” Edward said in a harsh whisper. “I can’t see the damned lock.”
“You don’t have to whisper,” she said, her own soft voice barely above a whisper. “There’s no one here.”
That’s the woman I killed, he thought distantly. Or will kill.
He pulled a skeleton key from his leather wrap and tried it in the lock. It rattled but wouldn’t turn. “You don’t know that for sure, Phoebe.”
“We saw him get in his carriage and drive away,” she argued. “If you’re so worried, why did we bother coming here?”
“For the watch.” He selected another key. This one turned easily. He replaced the skeleton key and rolled his kit, then turned to her as he pulled open the ornate door. “He may not live alone. He may have slaves.”
“Oh, bother,” she said, brushing him with the folds of her frock as she sidled past him. “He doesn’t keep slaves, and he took his butler with him. We paid good money for information on this place, remember? There’s nobody here.”
“You’re right.” He slid his kit into a pocket of his cape and strolled in behind her. “Alright,” he said. “Let’s get started.”
The windowless sitting room was more of a gallery than a lounge. Though the room held ornate, velvet-cushioned settees and high-backed chairs, they paled in comparison to the artwork and jewels crammed into every available space. Paintings hung from every available space. Sculptures stood tall on the floor or sat on display stands. Glass display cases held jewels and valuables from around the world. It was the room where the Magician entertained his guests and showed off his wealth. And now, it was theirs to plunder.
They moved quickly in the dim candlelight, grabbing the most portable of the valuables and dropping them into their sacks. A necklace, a ring, a jewel-encrusted elephant figurine. Some bracelets, a golden spyglass, a crown that had been perched atop a bust. Anything they could carry was fair game. In a drawer, they found the one item they had come looking for, a golden pocket watch. He swept it into his bag.
“I don’t even know why you want that old thing,” she complained.
“It’s important,” he replied. “He killed my father with it.”
They completed their circuit of the room and made ready to leave. Edward stopped at a pedestal next to the room’s only exit, the glint of its occupant having caught his eye. “Maybe we ought to take this, too.” His eyes slid over its intricately carved columns, the gold inlay, and the bejeweled base. He reached out to touch it, then grasped it and lifted it to his face. “It’s beautiful,” he breathed as he stared at the gray sand within the glass.
“Remember why we’re here, Edward. That thing is too bulky. Leave it.” She started through the door.
The play of the candlelight on its jeweled base was mesmerizing. He turned it over, transfixed by the sand falling through the center. “I can’t leave it.”
“We came for the one thing.” She motioned towards his bag. “And whatever else we can easily unload. Not that.” She pointed at the sand clock in his hands. “Besides, you dolt, the Magician has probably cursed it. Leave it and let’s go.”
He glanced at her, then back at the elaborate hourglass in his hands. “I’ll just carry it with me then.”
She made a face. “On your head it’ll be.”
#
He dropped the jagged rock and swayed as the rockpile shifted beneath him. He slid down, away from the barrier, towards the point of the deepening cavity. He crab-walked back up and dug himself a flat shelf on which to sit.
He turned and stared out of the barrier, straining to see something. Anything. Dim lights swam in the distance but failed to provide any details. He ran his hand along the barrier that imprisoned him. It was smooth, like glass. “Please, somebody, please let me out of here,” he pleaded in a whimper.
Outside the barrier, a light glinted from something above his line of sight. He looked up, straining to see through the darkness. Something was there, he knew it. If he could just strain hard enough.
A giant pair of eyes were staring in at him.
He jumped back and rolled and slid down the stone pile. He scrambled, kicking and sliding all the while. He held out his arms and dug in his feet, halting his slide. Gingerly he crawled up to the edge of the pile. He sat with his back against the barrier, unwilling to see anything further.
“Ha. Ha. Ha.” The deep, grim laughter echoed around him. Wild-eyed, he looked to his left, and his right, and then above him. There was no one there.
“Who are you?” he cried. “What do you want with me?” His voice echoed within his prison but garnered no answer.
“Don’t you remember, Edward?” The deep baritone echoed around him, shaking the rocks beneath him. “You, will, in due time.”
The rocks shifted again. He put out his hands to steady himself. Around him, some of the rocks had changed. There were more white and black stones, now. Some had turned gold, others silver. He even saw a few dull red and blue ones.
A red stone lay nearby. Bracing himself, he reached for it with one hand. A jagged edge cut bloodlessly into one of his fingers, but he ignored the pain. He brought it close to his face and focused his full attention on it, then brought his other hand up to hold it firmly before him.
He closed his eyes against the expected vertigo. He breathed deeply as he fell, the light blindingly bright despite his tightly shut eyes. His breath caught, his ears rang, and he opened his eyes to the approaching darkness of another memory.
#
The bells pealed as they strode down the aisle, arm in arm. Ushers opened the parish doors and they walked into the warm June sun. A carriage awaited them, four white horses standing ready while the driver held open the door.
“Oh, Edward, that was such a glorious wedding. I love you!”
Guests showered the carriage with rice and satin slippers as they climbed in. Alas, no slippers found their way inside.
He smiled from ear to ear. “And I you, Phoebe my love.” Indeed, it had been the happiest day of his life. If only his father had lived to see it.
They hugged and kissed as the carriage wound its way through the rolling Connecticut hills. She looked around at the carriage, then lovingly up at Edward. “We’ll owe quite a bit for all of this when we return.”
Edward nodded. “Yes, indeed. But I’ve spoken with Henry, he has a few jobs for us when we return that will help tremendously.”
She laughed. “Perhaps a bit of pilfering while we’re gone will give us a head start.”
“I like how you think,” he agreed. He smiled wistfully, a faraway look coming over him.
Her smile turned to a pout. “Are you thinking of your father, again?”
He shook his head. “No, my love. The watch. It’s the thing I most want to pilfer.”
“You have to remember, the Magician is a powerful man. It wouldn’t do to anger him.”
“He killed my father. I have to avenge him.”
“And you will,” she assured him. “But first, we have to repay our debts from this wedding. And we’ll need some information about that mansion of his. It won’t be cheap.”
His smile grew as he returned his attention to his new bride. “No, it won’t, but with you by my side, we can’t possibly fail, now can we?”
They embraced again and kissed lovingly.
#
He could still feel her lips on his as he fell into the stones that surrounded him. “Blast it.” He fought through the pain in his chest to push himself back to a sitting position. “What the hell happened?” His voice echoed around his prison, setting him on edge.
How? he thought. What could have happened to take me from marriage to murder?
He searched for another colored stone, one that might bring him some answers. A black stone by his feet seemed like a likely candidate.
He grabbed the rock with both hands and fell, his head spinning round and round, carrying him out of the field of rocks and into another piece of his past.
#
“That’s the best I can do for ya,” the man with the eyepatch said.
Phoebe sighed, exasperated. “But these pieces, Henry. Look at them!” She waved her hand over the black velvet and the pile of stolen valuables.
Henry, their fence, clucked his tongue. “Yes, I see them. And I know from whence they came. Some of these will be no trouble, but these, here,” he indicated a small pile he had pushed to the side. “Too recognizable. Much riskier to sell.”
“But what about the pocket watch?” She turned around and caught Edward by the door. He was leaning against the wall and staring at the falling sands in his hourglass. “Edward! The pocket watch! And stop staring at that thing.”
“Hm?” he said. He looked up for a moment. “Oh, yes. Here.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out the timepiece. She snatched it from him as he returned his gaze to the hourglass.
She shook her head as she added it to the pile. “He’s become obsessed with that thing,” she complained. “Gets dimmer every time he looks at it. Keeps forgetting things.”
The fence nodded absently. “It is a nice piece, gold casing, diamonds round the face.” He shook his head. “But I can’t sell this. Custom made for the Magician. I try to move this and he’ll have my hide. Likely turn me into a toad.”
She smiled knowingly. “Not without the watch, he won’t. Edward,” she said, turning to face him. “Tell him the story about the watch.”
Edward looked up with a disturbed look on his face. “What story?”
She scrunched up her face. “The story, Edward. The one you’ve been telling me for years. The watch, the Magician, your father? Remember?”
“My father?” he raised his eyebrows. “The watch? I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
She rolled her eyes and returned her attention to the fence. “You see what I mean? It’s all he used to talk about, how the Magician used this watch to kill his father. He’s convinced the Magician has no power without it.”
The fence clucked his tongue again. “He’s daft if he thinks that. I’ll not touch it.” He nodded toward Edward. “That over there, though, I can give you a pretty penny for that hourglass.” He examined it appraisingly. “Piece like that, if I move it overseas, it’ll fetch a high price.”
Phoebe smiled. “You’ve got a deal.” She turned to Edward.
He looked at her, aghast. “I’ll not give it up. What are we even doing here?” He pointed at Henry. “Who is this man?”
Phoebe stared at him, her jaw agape. “He’s gotten worse, just since we’ve arrived. Like that thing is absorbing his memories or something.” She shook her head. “Just this, then, Henry.”
The fence smiled at her. “He ever forgets about that, you bring it back here. I’ll give you top dollar.”
#
The ground shook under him, rousing him from the fugue of his memory. He fell and hit his head against the barrier. He stumbled back, kicked at a rock, and watched it fall toward the deepening recess.
A worn, blue stone sat beneath the one he had kicked. It was chipped and cracked, its color dull with age. He grabbed it and held it to his forehead. His head spun as he fell, the rush of wind and time filling his ears and screaming in his mind until a sound like the pop of a cork. Silence engulfed him, and he found himself in another time.
#
The boy stood aside to allow the tall man in the cape to enter his modest home.
Is that me? echoed through his mind. What am I, ten years old?
The man removed his top hat and handed it to the boy. “Hold this for me,” he growled. “I shan’t be long.”
The hulking man’s head was covered in long, wild hair. A full beard and drooping mustache obscured his face beneath a wide nose and gold-rimmed monocle. He brought his white-gloved hands together and cracked his knuckles with a cruel grin.
The boy’s father approached from the hall. He wore the black outfit of a chimney sweep, ready to head out on his next job.
“Edward, come here, away from the Magician,” the father said.
So that’s the Magician.
The Magician stepped into the room, moving at a slow, deliberate pace. “You did a fine job cleaning my chimney.” His grin widened, his lips peeling away to reveal sharp incisors. “But you have taken something from me.” He moved closer to the father. “I intend to have it back.”
“I uh, I don’t think I know what you’re talking about,” the father said, fear in his eyes.
The Magician pulled a pocket watch from his cape and dangled it in front of the father’s face. The father’s eyes glazed over as he watched it swing back and forth.
“I think that you do,” the Magician said. “I command you to give it to me.”
The father’s jaw went slack and he stumbled from the room, the Magician’s power too much to resist.
The boy stared at the Magician and the dangling watch. The watch, he thought. Is that the key to his power? It must be!
The Magician smiled at him, a frightening, creepy sneer.
Edward’s father returned, holding an ornate golden fountain pen. The Magician snatched it and placed it within his cloak.
“You see,” the Magician said, swinging the watch in front of the father, “this pen is special. I need it to write in my tomes and on my scrolls. You deprive me of this, you deprive me of my livelihood. As I shall now deprive you of yours.”
“No!” the boy cried.
The Magician ignored him. The watch dangled in front of the father, slowly spinning at the end of its chain. “Go to your next job. Climb to the top of the roof and into the chimney.” The Magician’s lips curled in a sinister smile. “Relaxat, dimittas, somnos.” He snapped his fingers and pocketed the watch.
The boy ran up to the Magician and pounded him with his fists. The Magician easily swatted him away. “Be still, boy. Your father is powerless to resist my spell. Remember this well. Cross me, and your turn will come.”
The Magician left. The boy’s father followed. He never returned.
#
The rock slid from his fingers but his eyes refused to focus. The memory lingered on, refusing to release him.
My father never returned, he thought. The constabulary came to tell Mum he had died. Fell asleep in a chimney and suffocated.
The memory let go, leaving him among the shifting rocks.
The Magician had killed his father.
“Your father crossed me.” The Magician’s voice echoed around him, deafeningly loud. He covered his ears but it did little to block out the sound. “He paid his price.”
He shook his head as the echoes died out around him. The conical depression was deep, now, and near as he could tell, extended all the way to the barrier. In the center of the pit, the rocks jiggled and shimmied and fell through to whatever lay below.
“You haven’t much time.” The mocking, powerful words of the Magician reverberated around him as he scrabbled to the highest point he could reach, at the barrier to his prison.
He looked out of the barrier, straining again to see what there was to see. The eyes, he thought. It must be the Magician that watches me suffer in this pit.
A slow laugh rolled over him, causing a shiver that he felt down to his bones. The eyes swam in the darkness beyond the barrier, and now he could see a thin nose, a happy, stupid grin.
It’s all wrong, he thought. That isn’t the Magician.
The face outside the barrier lit up as if the lights had popped on, and now he could see every detail: the bloody nose, the swollen eye that was going to black, the split lower lip that mixed blood with a line of drool.
What the hell? he thought. That’s me!
His mouth fell open as he stared at the giant doppelganger staring at him through the barrier. As he peered into the doppelganger’s face, his face, he knew that he must be going mad.
Laughter surrounded him, echoing around his prison. Where is that coming from? His double sat watching silently, the same stupid grin on his face.
A horrible thought struck him. Which of us is the doppelganger, he, or me?
The rocks rumbled and shifted, throwing him backward toward the center of the depression. He scrambled to get away, but the rocks were too unstable. It wouldn’t be long before he was sucked through the vortex at the pit’s bottom.
“You have crossed me, too,” the voice of the Magician said, his menacing baritone rumbling around him. “And now you shall pay.”
The rocks around him were changing color, lightening to white and darkening to black, fading to dull red and brightening to bright gold. He grabbed at them, looking for any that would slow his descent.
A blue rock grabbed his attention. He wrapped both of his hands around it and felt himself fall through the stone and into another memory.
#
“Where is it?” Edward screamed. “Why did you take it away!”
Phoebe screamed right back at him. “It’s killing you, Edward! Every look at that falling sand and a little more of you drains away. You’re losing your memories, Edward! Everything that is you! You must stop before you’re all gone!”
“Nonsense!” He advanced on her threateningly. “It’s mine and I want it back!”
“But it’s killing you!”
“Why do you even care, woman?” He was in her face now, flexing his hands.
She slapped him. “I’m your wife, you ass!”
He looked at her as if her ears had sprouted mushrooms. “My wife? I don’t even know you!” He pushed her roughly and she stumbled back.
Incredulous, she lashed out, punching him square in the jaw. “How dare you act like you don’t remember me!” She brought her knee up and he doubled over in pain. “That thing is stealing your mind. I’ll never give it back!”
He forced himself up, anger smoldering in his eyes. “If you won’t give it to me, I’ll have to take it.” He launched himself at her, and the fight was on.
They fought all through the living room of their tiny flat, breaking furniture as they battered each other. Though he was physically larger, she was the better fighter and gave as good as she got. Blows landed, blood flew, someone lost a tooth.
He paused, breathless. Sensing she had the advantage, she tried one last time to appeal to his senses. “Stop this madness,” she said around a mouthful of blood. “You’ll not get it back.”
Though tired, he was not yet defeated. With a snarl, he tackled her, slamming her into a chair that shattered beneath her. Her head hit the floor and she was slow to get up.
He was not.
He spat blood as he watched her crumpled on the floor.
“Edward,” she pleaded. “Please!” She tried to push herself up but he shoved her back with his foot.
“I didn’t tell you to get up,” he growled.
“I’m sorry!” she cried. “I … I can explain!”
She pleaded some more, but he barely heard her. He reached into his tattered jacket and pulled a gun. More empty words, but he was beyond caring. This woman had taken his hourglass, and now he would have it back.
“Edward, I love you!” She shifted again, one arm behind her, as if trying to push herself upright.
“Sure,” he said. He sneered, then pulled the trigger.
He staggered and fell, the pain in his chest drowning out the sounds of the gunshots. He grabbed at the pain and felt a sticky wetness. When he looked down, he saw a hole in his cape and a growing blossom of red wetness.
She’s missed my heart, he thought. But not by much.
Grimacing, he pushed himself across the floor, stopping beside the woman’s lifeless body.
“Who are you?” he whispered. He felt he should know her, but the memory was gone.
In the hand that had been behind her, she held a smoking pistol. He shook his head slowly and chastised himself for not anticipating that she would also be armed.
“Where did you put it?” She’d had no time to get it out of the house. He looked down the hall, through the open bedroom door. A glint of gold beckoned him from under the bed. Smiling, he pulled himself towards it, a trail of blood following him.
#
The shaking wouldn’t stop. He scrambled, but could find no purchase; the sides of the pile were too steep. “No!” He dug in his feet but continued to slide toward the widening maw that had appeared at the bottom of the pit. Frantic, he clawed and grabbed, looking for a way to stop his descent.
“It’s too late for you, Edward.” The slithering baritone of the Magician assaulted him as he fell. “As you gripped to the flawed memory of your youth, now shall you be trapped here, with all your memories.”
“No!” Edward screamed and kicked, but could not stop sliding. The rocks fell under him, and he fell with them. The memories pounded his mind as the rocks pounded his sides.
The day he met her.
A foot dipped into the gaping maw, and he could not lift it out.
The first pocket he’d picked.
The other fell below, and he felt the pull of the vortex as he fell into the bottom of the hourglass.
The beating he’d taken after stealing coins from his mum’s purse.
He screamed, his face contorted with the frenzy of his panic. His hips fell through, then his chest.
His last, wheezing breath as he bled out on his bedroom floor.
He threw out his arms, but the barrier, the sides of the hourglass, were too smooth. The Magician’s laughter echoed around him as he slipped through the hole.
#
The constabulary found Edward in a puddle of his own blood and drool. He was slumped on the bedroom floor in the fetal position, an ornate hourglass cradled in his arms. The Magician followed the two officers and pointed at the hourglass.
“That is my property. I’d have it now, please.” A dense fog was forming in the doorway behind him.
The two officers looked at each other, started to say something about evidence but thought better of it. Better not to cross the Magician, they thought, lest they end up like poor Edward. One of the officers nodded at him.
The Magician lifted the hourglass and thanked the men. He turned and disappeared into the fog. As the fog cleared, the Magician was gone.
In his mansion, the Magician carefully replaced the hourglass on its pedestal.
“Welcome to your new home, Edward.” He grasped the hourglass, Edward’s prison, and turned it over. “Time for another stroll through your memories.”
He watched the sand begin to stream through its center.
A smile grew on his face. He laughed, a deep laugh that continued as he walked away.
#
When he came to, the man was sprawled face-down over a bed of rough rocks. A sound drifted away, familiar though its name raced just out of his grasp.
Where the hell am I, he thought.
Mr. Chappell is the chosen servant of four feline overlords, who allow him and his wife to serve them in the outskirts of the NJ pine barrens. Besides writing, he enjoys making photographs and reading. His short story, “A Random Act of Kindness,” will appear in Dark Horses Magazine #30.